Gaia commission. I am tired.
Some very sloppy colored Jims
Rina in color
I’ve been wanting to draw these fabulous ladies for a while now. Here they are!
Final Fantasy 4 doodles
The characters from the comic I will make eventually.
Flower inspired doodles.
Tome doodles from the past week or so.
I was going to color this but I’m tired. Drawn yesterday on the train.
I have something to say here. TOME is something I’ve needed in my life for a very long time. For a very long time I had forgotten how to enjoy things. I had forgotten that media exists to entertain. It’s supposed to be fun. I had never understood fandoms before this. I always felt it odd that people would get so wound up over things. The comics, the fanfics, fan animations I honestly just didn’t get the point. I had forgotten that I used to do that myself as a kid and that it made the relationship I had with whatever the thing was so much more important and meaningful to me. I had become an outsider looking in and forgetting that fan works have their place. If they inspire creation then they are valid and important. I had come to hate creating things because of desperation and depression. I had forgotten that it was supposed to be fun. TOME is fun and it’s the type of thing that I’ve been mulling over trying to create myself for a long time. I was so stressed and so sad because I felt like such a failure because I couldn’t make anything I deemed worthy. I couldn’t make anything good.
I still want to make something good but I think…a better goal would be to make something that can do what TOME did for me. I haven’t enjoyed anything this much in years. It gives me hope that someday I will get better.
My heart doesn’t feel heavy today.
Here, there, everywhere